You’re gonna disrespect me like that, hide it, pretend nothing happened. Who the fuck do you think you are. What you’ve started you will NOT have the pleasure of finishing. I’m going to break you, mentally, emotionally, physically. Your life is about to become a living Hell, the devil himself will pity you. You just fucked up.
Well, here’s how I see it. Because of my actions, she got together with Clay and she’s content with it. So, through an idiotic and selfish action, I made two people happy. Doesn’t justify what I did and I’m not proud of it, but everything worked out for the better. You’re over a year and a half late bud, just getting up to speed?
You want something? Go get it. Someone or something in your way? Knock that shit down. You are the keeper of your destiny, you decide what happens in your life. Quit making excuses, think that you’re not good enough. Every person on this Earth is equal. Give yourself the drive, dedicate your time, have some faith for once. You’re not weak, not frail, you’re a mother fucking bad ass and nothing can stand in your way. Point, blank, period.
Before I start, I want it to be known that this isn’t a post to get sympathy, just one of those things that I HAVE to get off my chest.
Everything I do, the path I’m walking, the roads I take, decisions I make, are all inspired by the same thing, you. When I’m down, tired at work, struggling to make it through the day, I remind myself why I’m doing what I’m doing. Just one thought of you, us, whether it ever happens again, has the power to wake me up, make me smile, push me forward. Most of the time I get angry, but I tell myself its not over. I don’t care what anyone says, even you. If I have to hold onto this for the rest of my life just to keep my head up, I will. I will prove that a person’s mistakes doesn’t define them. It’s all about how they get up and the push to correct the wrong done. My point will be made, this is one promise that’s already been kept, carved in stone. I know what you’re thinking at this exact moment to. You’re saying to yourself “You need to live for yourself Jedidiah, do things that make you happy.” What you don’t understand is that’s exactly what I’m doing. I just hope you’re doing alright, I worry about you a lot. Chin up dear, you’ve got a long road ahead of you, but don’t worry, there’s an angel ready to guide you all along the way.